With Thanksgiving having just passed, I thought it would be nice to talk about being thankful even when times are tough. If you have been following my journey, you know that this year has been quite challenging with our fertility struggles. It’s been a tough year physically, emotionally, and financially (these treatments do not come cheap, even with insurance). Even still I have so many things to be thankful for.
I was blessed last Sunday to stand in front of our congregation at church with my husband and share what we are thankful for and it went like this:
To start, I am so thankful for our doctor and nurse who have been there every step of the way with us, adjusting protocols, hearing us, and working with us to make this journey a successful one. I am also incredibly thankful for science, giving us the ability to explore different treatment options within the realms of doing IVF. I am thankful to our IVF journey for showing me how resilient and strong I can be. That being said, I am also beyond thankful for my relationship with God. It is because of this relationship that I have had such perseverance and been able to endure 2 rounds of IUI, 3 egg retrievals, and two failed transfers. I have said to Kevin countless times that I don’t know how folks who don’t have a relationship with God make it through this journey. I am thankful for my friendships, whether they be the new ones I have made through support groups or therapy, or the ones I have had for years and years. In sharing our journey, we have received an outpouring of love and support and I cannot thank those friends and family members enough. This journey has come with an abundance of disappointments that I never would have been able to make it through without God, my friends, and my husband by my side, lifting my spirits, and carrying me when I couldn’t carry myself. And speaking of my husband, this year he has been so involved in praise team as a part of the tech group and it has been so amazing being able to share something I am so passionate about with him; I am so thankful for his willingness to be a part of this amazing group that I love so much.
So you see, even when there is so much heartbreak and disappointment, there is still so much to be thankful for! To add to this list, I’m also thankful to have a place to share our story. There are so many couples who choose not to share their story and hold it all in. If I did that, I’d probably explode! For those who know me personally, you know I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, so I would not have been able to hide what we’ve been going through over the past year very well, even if I wanted to. So, I’m thankful for a platform where I can let it all out and express what is going on. And to that end, I thank you for reading our story and showing us your love and support! It truly means more than you can ever know.
So Where Are We Now?
Just to give a quick update because I know it’s been a bit since I shared any details, I was able to have an endometrial biopsy performed a couple of weeks ago so our doctor could have the final few tests run before our next transfer. Y’all, if you are fortunate enough to never have had an endometrial biopsy done, count your blessings. It wasn’t the worst thing in the world, but it was definitely very uncomfortable! However, thus far it was soooo worth it! To date, we have received the results back from one of the three tests. My ERA (Endometrial Receptivity Array) results came back and it turns out that I need 183 hours of progesterone before my lining will be ready to receive an embryo. To put this in perspective, the typical number of hours of progesterone given prior to a frozen embryo transfer is 120 hours, so I need a lot more. Having this information alone makes this test worth it for us. We finally have some sort of answer as to why our first two transfers failed. We have an appointment with our doctor Monday morning to discuss exactly what this means for our transfer cycle and, even though we are still waiting on the results from the other two tests, I am scheduled to go in for baseline bloodwork and ultrasound on December 1! I hope and pray all things go as planned once we get those final test results (hopefully both come back normal), and we will be able to proceed with a December transfer. Until then, I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving and always remember in all things to be thankful.